ok so man. i was feeling bad last night and i didnt know why. blogs are a very strange thing. in my case anyway. its like my life, but with holes in it. so yeah, leaving people wondering and whatnot. anyway. id have to say. best end of the year party EVAR! hahaaa evar. and ok. time for a lovely long story. so yesterday. i had things figured out. and i told kayte that when i did shed be the first to know. so after trying to call her for half an hour then getting through and there being no one there...yeah. sort of mad that i could kep to my word on that one. so i left for coffe with megs. and yeah. that was fun. i tell ya. like there was coffee.(duh) and then i told her how i felt. she had this great smile that blew me away and i didnt know what to say after that. she got her two..and another. haha and i got my kick! yes! so then we had a nice walk thru river park square. and criticizing the running men. yes, boobs dont really look like that. haha. and sitting on the bench in front of abecrombie. asking why they use naked people to advertise cloths. geh beats the hell outta me. haha. but entertaining. then back to starbucks. and her ride being late. standing out in lovely cold. haha yes. i like the cold. and then yes. good times. so then getting home and having to make a phone call. which i even stalled with myself for. hah. yeah. all it was was really two scentences. and then we said goodbye. ...hah. brb, need more sparkling cider. heh yeah. i didnt need to type that, but i did anyway. so yeah. then i was feeling pretty bad. cause yeah. things that were said. but i was in fact really excited and happy. i guess just exhausted. *sigh*. so today. woke up feeling better. much better. and kaiti took me to peter pan. dude, i didnt think it would be that good, but holy crap. that movie is awesome. theres no question, i have to take megan to it. haha. totally makes me want to fly. and yes, yesterday i got my first flying lesson.

so now about tonight, and i say that even though its 2:22 AM. haha so after the movie, kaiti and i walked around a bunch. it was soo cool. ice sculptures with chainsaws. also fire. happy drunk people havin a good time. they blocked off around river park square so you could walk down the street. it was great. gah man. megan i wish you were there. so next year. haha we all have to go. so then kaiti gave me some CDs she burnt. aweseome. and before that i gave her her sketch pad. late late christmas present. excellent rap job. haha. and then we booked down to megs's party. haha ohhh man. totally best new years clebratory dealy EVAR!...wait did i already say that? ah who cares. and oh that just reminded me about megan dying her hair dark brown with red highlights. haha. dude, you have no idea...(well actually most of the people who read this do) it looks so good. just absolutely gorgeous. and she wore it down tonight. haha bitchen. atleast i dont think it was poking you in the eye this time. heh. and yeah. so i get there. and theres lisa's giant boots which were awesome. and downstairs with music. and holy crap. a LOT of silly string fights. Ian (Peter) was there and i believe he intigated most of them. but a lot of people got it, like in the eye and badness. my glasses saved me the first time, but im still picking it out of my hair. hah. and oh man, it was bad. i dont remember if it was liz or nikki, i think it was nikki, but she got megs really bad. yeah it didnt arasol right so it came out in a big wet spray. bad. she had to change her cloths. and i believe someone got it on the videotape we were making. HAHA. yeah, that video camera was fun. just taping us being nuts. so lets see, who was there. me, megan, kaiti, nikki, lisa, peter. liz and sara were in for periods. gar i dont believe im forgetting anyone. but yea. lisa is a nut for sparkling cider. "Yeah I always have a bottle to myself on every holiday. New years, christmas....tuesday." haha made me laugh quite much. yeah i was worried about kaiti for a while. she didnt seem to be alright during a lot of it. but she seemed to get better at the end. oh yeah i almost for got. we bought bags of candy during our walk around. because i was late and so we just waited for the next showing. haha. yeah. bought candy. gummy bears. and sour patch, and jaw breakers and runts. then some spree. hah good times. definitely. and the walk in the snow to walk kaiti home after the partay was fun. heh. GLOVE BOWL! very nice. haha loads of head in the gutter jokes from peter. heh. good stuff. haha. laughing is good. ah man though. nikki had had a bad year...and so had a lot of other people. megan. and i cant remember if the stuff that was bad with me was this year. actually i believe it was, well some of it. i can only remember in school years. sucks. anyway. i think almost everyone can find bad things about this past year. if not everyone. but the year is a new one. time to hopefully move past some things. and ill quote the counting crows here: "A long December and theres reason to believe, maybe this year be better than the last." definitely. i havent thought about resolutions, but ill get back to you on that. yeah. i ended up setting my watch alarm and we watch dick clark and the ball drap and all that goodness. and lovely kisses all around. and hugs are for everyone!...wait..isnt that chainsaws!? haha great times. so ive got enough sparkling cider left in my glass for a last toast. time to remember the old and remember what ive learned this past year. time to look at now and be excited about the new. so heres to new beginnings. cheers and happy new year everyone.