in the end. guys will always be stupid wont they. want what they cant have. but the crux comes when, at the moment you finally get what you thought would never come...do you take it for granted? do you choose to not believe it and look for somthing else unattainable? no. not this time. haha. i refuse to be a stupid guy. now that statement, was like jumping out of a plane wthout a paraschute. yeah. your giving death the finger. right untill the end when it all comes crashing down..and you realise that your still...just a stupid guy. taking love for granted.

hoo boy. im ged up with my mood. im being stupid. i dont even know what im feeling like this but all i want to do is sit here and listen to slow songs. haha....GOD DAMMIT! things arent bad. i should be happy. i should be appreciative. shit. oh man good lyric. "you're my daily dose of reality." haha. dude. i love creed....anyway! i wonder if its my isolation from people getting to me...i dunno.. i like it out here. its quiet. its pretty. ....but what i wouldnt give for some people every once and a while. so yes. hopefully coffee tomarrow. yay. im done.

yes. a nice christmas.cool gifts include. some nice new shirts. fingerless gloves. a MAN bracelet (haha). DDR Max 2. some cool games. manga. goodies. yay its all fun. but if this christmas is anything. its a happy one, but a lonely one. everyones gone. only talking to cassie. and were not really as close of friends as we were before so conversation has its limits. *sigh* and its the smallest christmas present that i find myself without. so ill listen to the slow songs. and dream about it....so heres to old friends and new friends. heres to good times. heres to the moments you remember. heres to wishes and dreams. merry christmas everybody.

haha yeah. meant to post that one earlier. oh and yeah. i started the purple insanity thing. WHEE!! goodnight.

aye. merry christmas folks. im in a nice mood. and soon ill be heading for sleep. hehe.

help me........... yes. purple insanity.ill do that. hehe.

hoo boy. ill quote myself here "avery nelson. welcome to the world of conflicted." this stuff isnt going well in my head.

yeah i made another background. and i guess i should post them both because i never posted the first one. "original" is tributed to kat. haha and i have yet to tribute "anger". and once again. click the thumbs to see the actuall pics in huge (1024x768) size. w00t for photoshop.

yeah. just titting and reading while time goes by. waiting for kayte's parents to get home. music is good. a slow day. and this is a good song.

Fuel - Sunburn

The sky was dark this morning
Not a bird in the trees
And silence hung suspicious and anxious
Like a blanket covered scream

And you were gone
You were not there for me
And I cursed the sky and begged the sun to
Fall all over me
This life's not living, baby
Living ain't free
If I can't find my way back to me
Let the sun fall down over me
Let the sun fall down

All my friends are searching
Quiet, desperately
Look into their eyes you'll see the faithless crying
Save me, save me, save me

And what are they to feel
And who are they to be
And what am I to do with, do with me, but let the sun
Fall all over me
This life's not living, baby
Living ain't free
If I can't find my way back to me
Let the sun fall down over me
Let the sun fall down

Until my eyes cry out
'Til my head is free from doubt
'Til my lungs sigh right out
'Til I'm wiser

Let the sun
Fall all over me
This life's not living, baby
Living ain't free
If I can't find my way back to me
Let the sun fall down over me
Let the sun fall down

so im eating breakfast and im hearing these lyrics and i realised they were perfect.


Dashboard Confessional - As Lovers Go

she said "i've gotta be honest,
you're wasting your time if you're fishing round here."
and i said "you must be mistaken,
cause i'm not fooling...this feeling is real"
she said...she said "you gotta be crazy,
what do you take me for...some kind of easy mark?"
you've got wits...you've got looks,
you've got passion but i swear that you've got me all wrong.

all wrong.
all wrong.
but you got me...

i'll be true, i'll be useful...
i'll be cavalier...i'll be yours my dear.
and i'll belong to you...
if you'll just let me through.
this is easy as lovers go,
so don't complicate it by hesitating.
and this is wonderful as loving goes,
this is telling me 'whats the sense in waiting?'

and i said "i've gotta be honest
i've been waiting for you all my life."
for so long i thought i was a silent bound,
but just seeing you makes me think twice.
and being with you here makes me sane,
i fear i'll go crazy if you leave my side.
you've got wits...you've got looks,
you've got passion but are you brave enough to leave with me tonight?

tonight.
tonight.
but you've got me...

i'll be true, i'll be useful...
i'll be cavalier...i'll be yours my dear.
and i'll belong to you...
if you'll just let me through.
this is easy as lovers go,
so don't complicate it by hesitating.
and this is wonderful as loving goes,
this is telling me 'whats the sense in waiting?'
this is easy as lovers go,
so don't complicate it by hesitating.
and this is wonderful as loving goes,
this is telling me 'whats the sense in waiting?'

...perfect....