bleh. i feel wierd lately. and i know these dashboard songs soo well because i only have 15 and i just listen to them over and over because theyre great. and now when i hear good parts i just want to like sing em real loud but i know my family would think im all wierd n stuff. hehe. hell ill probably just end up doing it anyway. and so it would seem that blah and bleh are my new fave catch phrases. yeah. i got aqua teen hunger force back today. its been a while. the jokes still make me bust a gut. HAHAH HOLY CRAP! THAT FUNNY!...ahem..anyway. i cant think of much more. doing crappy homework. blah.

"yea.  hehe.  hmm...  so conflicting thoughts...  yea, still there, but it's all... yea, it's ok now. yea.  heh...  whee.  yessum.  but who knows, may change.  hope not.  well... yea.  or no.  i mean... never mind, i don't know.  hah.  yea.  err... still weird.  in my head.  oh, screw it, this makes no sense.  lyrics.  crazy.  hah.  yea, i think i'm done now, because this really makes no sense.  mostly.  or not.  but yea.  done." ~Kayte

one of the best quotes ever. haha. so yeah. i should probably do my homework now.....blah.

lets see...so i woke up today. and ive been editing me last entry all day. and ive had about 6 or 7 cups of coffee today. and yet im relaxed. got to finish english homework afore ten oclock blargh. potatoes for dinner. still expieriencing a sort of afterglow from last night. heh, swimming in memories of good times. thinking of sunsets and sunrises. moments. heh. remembering how megs was talking about, how a good one would be to share a sunset with someone, then get into suck a good conversation that you forget about everything else and only come back down to earth when you realise that the sun is rising again. totally awesome. yes i notice that i say awesome, and anyway, and dewd a lot. but its all in good fun. the new people that i hang out with are all awesome because they can just sit around for 6 and a half hours and be having fun the whole time. one night. ill just walk to the south hill. and have fun. and walk home. and it will be awesome. and when you close your eyes and you see someone, some people might think your crazy. but its all good. and somehow things tend to work out for the better down the road. a year ago i would have said bullshit to that. but now, things are awesome. and ive never been quite so up. barely breathing by Duncan Sheik is a kickass song. so is save tonight by eagle eye cherry. and this is sooo random of an entry. make sure to watch out for E-Stabbers in the future when you can stab people thru the internet....i have been disallowed from growing a scragly beard for my artist image. haha. i seem to be slipping in and out of "life is a movie" mode. listeing to Iris by the goo goo dolls. and chattin with megs and kayte. and i dont seem to have many more thoughs so ipp post this one. wheeee!

yeah dude. tonight kicked so much ass. rocked my socks off. well one of them atleast. haha. but yeah. hung out at megans for a good long time. listening to music. yeah i got up at 3 today. took a shower, breakfast which was a slice of pumkin pie, 2 eggos and a cup of coffee. then did a quick shave job. lol. the it was time ta go over. from about 5:30 to 12:00 i was there. twas me and kayte, megs, kat, alexis, russel, liz. i hopes i ididnt foret anyone. prolly not tho. anyway. yeah hanging out. talking. tickling. turned into this like big cuddle fest. everyone laying on eachother...actually it was more like kayte and i laying on eachother and then everyone else piling on top. haha.. and then kat was laying on me and it was sort of akward becaues i dont think she knows kayte and i are going out....yea...so i hope kaytes not like wierded out or anything. i just thought it was a friend type thing cause everyone was laying on everyone else anyway. ANYWAYS. thats the most fun ive had in a long long time. ending with a sweet little goodnight kiss. and then megan schooled me in arm wrestling. haha. and so. ill end this entry with lyrics. cause this song was playing while i was writing this and its the prefect song for right now. lol. goodnight.

Dashboard Confessional - Hands Down

Breathe in for luck, breathe in so deep
This air is blessed, you share with me
This night is wild, so calm and dull
These hearts they race from self-control
Your legs are smooth as they graze mine
We're doing fine, we're doing nothing at all.
My hopes are so high that your kiss might kill me
So won't you kill me, so I die happy
My heart is yours to fill or burst
to break or bury, or wear as jewelery
Whichever you prefer
The words are hushed lets not get busted,
just lay entwined here undiscovered.
Safe in here from all the stupid questions..
"Hey did you get some?"
"Man, that is so dumb."
Stay quiet, stay near, stay close
they can't hear, so we can get some.
My hopes are so high that your kiss might kill me
So won't you kill me, so I die happy
My heart is yours to fill or burst
to break or bury, or wear as jewelery
Which ever you prefer
Hands down this is the best day I can ever remember
I'll always remember the sound of the stereo
The dim of the soft lights, the scent of your hair
That you twirled in your fingers
And the time on the clock when we realized it was so late
And this walk that we shared together
The streets were wet and the gate was locked
So I jumped it and let you in
And you stood at your door with your hands on my waist
And you kissed me like you meant it
And I knew, that you meant it
That you meant it, that you meant it
And I knew that you meant it, that you meant it

so yeah, here i am sitting here on my room computer. got home around 2:30. talked with nate in my sun room/porch thing till bout 4:30. yeah long time to talk. stuff like video games. some life stuff. catch up on RPGs. a nice good long chat. but man my feet were getting cold at the end. lol. anyways. i moved the computer by the place where it should be. didnt hook it up though. and so i sit here. read megs blog. seriously i need a new name for that thing cause blog sounds rough. and id say window into her soul, but.....ah hell we'll leave it at that.

"I have to tell you, or else you will never know. And I know you still won't, just by reading this. You will never in a million years, believe that it is you, but it is. I love you. I think I know. But I do... I did... I will. You should have never said it, because you made me believe it. And now I can't let it go" ~Megan

after i read that, I said "god" while sighing. but only cause i lacked an appropriate explative. what i was thinking was more along the lines of a stronger form of woah. hence the title. because that just blew me away. all i can do in reaction is sit here dumb while my thoughts just rattle away. if anyone ever feels that way about me. i can honestly say that i would feel like the happiest and luckiest man alive. i hope that love, is somthing that i never find myself taking for granted.


so its around 5:15 now. i was hoping to see the sunrise today, but i think its still a while off and my body is shutting down. tomarrow....today, should be good. hanging out with the cool peoples. spending time with kayte. YAY. and i believe thats the last coherent thought i can muster. my mind and body are pretty much spent. lol. goodnight and good morning.

some nice downtime at the lan. taking the opportunity to download music on dsl. heh. yeah i moved to the cooler room with the open window and the couch and the light on. and my headache went away so im happy. strangely relaxing in here. fun stuff. cant wait for tomarrow. but i have to do my homework before i go hangout which sucks cause its really hard english crap which i havent read the book for. hehe. yeah im smurt. but ill get it done. so yea....i guess im done for now. lol

so yeah. every one else is writing deep thoughts in their blogs. but. i cant say that im in a deep mood. im gettin revved for the lan tomarrow. hells yeah. i havent been to a lan with more than like 6 people for a long long time. and for lack of thoughts to write....LYRICS!

Orion Too - So shy

You are the sun in sorry eyes
Electrify the spark in me
Love me endlessly
Forever
Tattoo my name across your heart
Warrior in the night for me
Tiger at my feet
Forever

Don't be so shy
Don't be so shy
Inamorato let it flow
Love me forever
Don't be so shy
No reason why
Inamorato here we go
Love me forever
Sometimes you need a reason why
You've got to have some faith in me
We are meant to be
Forever
You are just one step away
Don't be a stranger to my life
Stay in paradise
Forever

Let love be the melody
Sing together
Forever

 

yeah so today was just a lounging around day. got up late. pumkin pie for breakfast. then big turkey dinner. then just relaxed for the rest of the night. watched a movie. ate more pie.....yeah. OCing for LAN tomarrow.

MSI nForce2
AMD 1700+
OC: 175Mhz FSB
Multiplier: 11
1925Mhz (1.925Ghz)
RAM Timings:5-2-2-2
ATI Radeon 2500 OC: 2700 Pro
3dMark 2001 SE : 14333

KICKASS!

happy thanks giving everybody

so before i went to the meeting. i had a cup of coffee. then i got there and got a venti coffe. then i got a second one, which i am drinking now. ill be up for a while. fun stuffs. ah but luke warm coffee. so disgusting. i had to pour it out. sad. hah. im soooo done.