haha ok. so yeah after i got home from starbucks it was really foggy at my house. and the people next door have this huge field and it was covered in snow. so i ran out right into the middle and i couldnt see anything except for this one post coming out of the ground and the occaisional tuft of wheat stumps. but the rest was ...all white. it was sooo cool. haha and so im just being a goof running around in this white nothingness for what seemed like quite a while when it was really only like 10 minutes. but yes. a perfect time to just feel happy.

there arent words for this. haha you stole them all. took my breath away. this has got to be what really being alive feels like. that important feeling that i wish i could make tangible. into a little trinket. attach it to a chain. never take it off. keep it...feel it forever.haha i just want to laugh it. scream it. dance outside in the middle if a field. but at the same time keep it quietly inside and just sit and smile with my hands folded. this has got to be the "wow" of my heart.

Megan. i just had this urge to read it again and remember. and I FOUND IT! December 27th. lets go back, i promised you we would. just you and me. i promised. and ill never forget it. lets fly again today...

yeah i hate my blog. lol

||Feelin|[bored...kinda
||Listenin|[Eve_6


what can i say? im up way too late drinkin a decaf pepsi. listenin to some good tunes. reading some photoshop tutorials but lacking the energy to actually do anything. played some NS while listening to some techno, that was interesting. haha and if any one besides me has read Amber, i could totally go for some trumps right now. seriously people should be able to communicate telepathically. that would solve a lot of problems. haha ok now im just being wierd. hmm theres a dinner party tonight for some famous author, i believe. but anyways, ill be going. probably wont say much. then afterwards hoping to do somthing with someone cause my mom said shed drive me somewhere. yeps. ok not wearing a shirt but wearing a coat. its really wierd ill tell ya. haha i have funny thoughts and no, you dont get to know them. hehe. blah. anyways. i finished my pepsi, so im gonna brush my teeth and go ta bed now. goodnight. oh hey, read these lyrics, this song is FREAKIN AWESOME! :D



Eve 6 - Superhero Girl

Well here is me on tragedy
I always want what’s out of reach
She pulls dyed black hair back and sighs
fuck that night out with the guys
I never get a word in with them, anyway.
The telephone doesn’t scare me anymore
you’re home
And I am here alone
my dear
Always stupidly sarcastic
my hyper - spastic superhero girl.

So break the bruised monogamy
and let him fade to memory
And your erotic wet atomic eyes
keep reoccuring in my mind
Do me a favor please
and touch your lips to mine.

The telephone doesn’t scare me anymore
you’re home
And I am here alone my dear
Always stupidly sarcastic
my hyper - spastic superhero girl.

||Feelin|[strangely blissfull
||Listenin|[Creed


haha so funny thing. i got online and megans away message was on saying she was deathly bored and someone should call her. so i did. but she had fallen asleep and was all sleepy. (sleepy people are so cute). and i dunno just talking to her for a couple minutes made me feel awesome eventhough we didnt really say much....heh...yes. i know im wierd. but it definitely deserved an entry. wheee :)

||Feelin|[confuzzled
||Listenin|[ Good_Charlotte


so today (yesterday) was uber confusing. got home and called megan first thing (yeah i know imaginary flowers are lame) then decided i needed a nap. so i slept till about 7:30 and i was so god damn confised. i didnt know what day it was and stuff. i thought it might be tomorrow and man it was wierd and disorienting. so then i called kat. and we talked for a while about quite a variety of subjects. lol. jello molds. ehm anyway. then i read megans blog entry and i swear, if ever there was a time for a question mark appearing above my head that was it. so yeah. thats all my thoughtss n stuff i guess. blah. goodnight.

well, 1 am. no one's online, what a surprise. lol. i had a tripple americano and another cup of regular, but its done nothing, im still tired. but ill write this entry. cause i freakin want to. the jazz thing was definitely awesome. yes spilling wax everywhere. but fun none the less. the lyrics to a lot of the songs were quite good, but no one sang "fly me too the moon" i would have liked that. lol. but its ok. there were a lot of other good songs. like the one im gonna post the lyrics to. Body and Soul. and tomarrow i dunno if im gonna go early or not, but we'll see. and megs is taking a sick day. she really needs one. feeling tired and sickly. gar. badness. but it gives me an idea for somthing cool to do. whee. anyway. its definitely time for some sleep. goodnight.

Carly Simon - Body And Soul

My heart is sad and lonely
For you I sigh, for you dear only
Why haven't you seen it
I'm all for you body and soul
I spend my days in longin'
And wondering why it's me you're wronging
I tell you I mean it
I'm all for you body and soul
I can't believe it It's hard to conceive it
That you turn away romance
Are you pretending
It looks like the ending
And less I could have one more chance to prove, dear
My life a wreck you're making
You know I'm yours for just the taking
I'd gladly surrender myself to you body and soul
My life a wreck you're making
You know I'm yours for just the taking
I would gladly surrender myself to you body and soul

||Feelin|[a little crazy
||Listenin|[ Tidal - Diffuser


eh, yeah. havent really posted anything in a while. and the things i post on here are what i talk about with the people who read it anyways. lol so i thought i should just put some stuff on here. so tonight is the jazz coffee shop thing at ferris. should be good. 2.50 for a 12 oz with ANYTHING in it. bwahahaha . full of espresso shots!!!!!1 i think that would be my biggest coffee endeavor ever. hmm depends on how im feelin. but should be fun. megs is gott a cold. sad. dont make fun of me for my grammars! bwahahaha. <-- unprompted devilish laugh. oh yeah. totally did some modeling for art first period. haha. hardcore fun. sara drew a really cool pic of me. hmm yeah. also made me wear her scarf. which was pink and highly perfumed. ...... ... . .....indeed. also, its a good thing that i didnt order my hip flask. ive gotta get coffee! w00!!! well i think im done. heres some lyrics to a cool song.

Tidal - Diffuser

Drink me like a Dixie cup and throw me out with all that you love.
(You think you are finally happy enough.)
I don't think you're ordinary, hopefully not temporary.
(Quicksand is the water I am treading.)

Look at my shakes, nothin' is fadin'.
And now a tidal wave of love has crashed on me.
It's not the same, somethin' is changin'.
And now a tidal wave of love has crashed on me, has crashed on me.

Swimming in a worn coat sleeve, I think I know you're just what I need.
(Now there's nothing left for you to believe.)
Pull back, and fade to black.
(Woke up spitting seaweed off of my face.)

Look at my shakes, nothin' is fadin'.
And now a tidal wave of love has crashed on me.
It's not the same, somethin' is changing.
And now a tidal wave of love has crashed on me, has crashed on me.

(Sha la la la la la. Yeah. Sha la la la la la.)

Here come the shakes, nothin' is fadin'.
And now a tidal wave of love has crashed on me.
It's not the same, somethin' is changin'.
And now a tidal wave of love has crashed on me...

Staring for days in the limbo, too late to travel.
That will squint your eyes, look at what you know.

Staring for days in the limbo, too late to travel.
That will squint your eyes, look at what you know.

||Feelin|[amazing
||Listenin|[Plain_White_T's - Fireworks

so yes. coffee with megs definitely the highlight of my day. haha just goofin around for a couple hours. and she was doing some homework. and it was all good. and now i am your arm tool. haha. silly girl, you make it so easy to feel happy. and i swear ive still got whipped cream somewhere. haha. done. =P