||Feelin|[a little crazy
||Listenin|[ Tidal - Diffuser


eh, yeah. havent really posted anything in a while. and the things i post on here are what i talk about with the people who read it anyways. lol so i thought i should just put some stuff on here. so tonight is the jazz coffee shop thing at ferris. should be good. 2.50 for a 12 oz with ANYTHING in it. bwahahaha . full of espresso shots!!!!!1 i think that would be my biggest coffee endeavor ever. hmm depends on how im feelin. but should be fun. megs is gott a cold. sad. dont make fun of me for my grammars! bwahahaha. <-- unprompted devilish laugh. oh yeah. totally did some modeling for art first period. haha. hardcore fun. sara drew a really cool pic of me. hmm yeah. also made me wear her scarf. which was pink and highly perfumed. ...... ... . .....indeed. also, its a good thing that i didnt order my hip flask. ive gotta get coffee! w00!!! well i think im done. heres some lyrics to a cool song.

Tidal - Diffuser

Drink me like a Dixie cup and throw me out with all that you love.
(You think you are finally happy enough.)
I don't think you're ordinary, hopefully not temporary.
(Quicksand is the water I am treading.)

Look at my shakes, nothin' is fadin'.
And now a tidal wave of love has crashed on me.
It's not the same, somethin' is changin'.
And now a tidal wave of love has crashed on me, has crashed on me.

Swimming in a worn coat sleeve, I think I know you're just what I need.
(Now there's nothing left for you to believe.)
Pull back, and fade to black.
(Woke up spitting seaweed off of my face.)

Look at my shakes, nothin' is fadin'.
And now a tidal wave of love has crashed on me.
It's not the same, somethin' is changing.
And now a tidal wave of love has crashed on me, has crashed on me.

(Sha la la la la la. Yeah. Sha la la la la la.)

Here come the shakes, nothin' is fadin'.
And now a tidal wave of love has crashed on me.
It's not the same, somethin' is changin'.
And now a tidal wave of love has crashed on me...

Staring for days in the limbo, too late to travel.
That will squint your eyes, look at what you know.

Staring for days in the limbo, too late to travel.
That will squint your eyes, look at what you know.

||Feelin|[amazing
||Listenin|[Plain_White_T's - Fireworks

so yes. coffee with megs definitely the highlight of my day. haha just goofin around for a couple hours. and she was doing some homework. and it was all good. and now i am your arm tool. haha. silly girl, you make it so easy to feel happy. and i swear ive still got whipped cream somewhere. haha. done. =P

||Feelin|[groggy
||Listenin|[Everybody's Free (To Wear Sunscreen)


so yes. actually got up earlyish thismorning. also deleted entries from yesterday cause it was crap. bleh. anyway. hoping for somthing today. atleast coffee. hmms yeah. anyways not much to posty. so ill get some eggos. w00! also. yes my rambling bloetry is gone. but i saved it here. so no worries. lol.

ok. the expanse of my day. sitting here. WOOHOO!!!! kaiti and megan are going to the concert that i cant go to because id have to walk there. fuck. well if im lucky ill get to do somthing tomorrow. well today i have a "nice" conversation with my dad it was actually a big fight of sorts. in which i sort of gave him a reality check that he didnt like. oh well. i feel better knowing that he knows how i feel. and now i doubt he'll drive me anywhere for a long time. which means tomorrow i might get to walk to the south hill. haha yes that would fucking rock so much. seriously. haha well. shit. being stuck here sucks. i think i might take a long walk tonight. to get some of this energy out before i start breakin things. lol j/k i can control my violence.....haha. done.

haha gar. here im doing it anyway. i really dont have all these bad thoughts. i really do have faith in you. you've never let me drown before. and if you fuck up, flake out, and kill me? no doubt about it, ill go with a smile on my face. theres no falling off of this. im duct taped to the platform. and i may not be falling in despair, but no doubt about it im still in free fall over you. so grab by hand, and lets fly off to never never land.


so now im listening to a better song to the one i was going to post. and here it is. haha this song rocks.


Good Charlotte - Moving On

When I think about my life
I wonder if I will survive to live to see in 25
or will I just fall?
Like all my friends, they just keep dying
People 'round me always crying
In this place that I like to call my home

Not everybody knows that everybody goes to a better place
Not everybody knows that everyone could be living their last days
But the hard times will come, and we'll keep movin' on, we're movin' up
Keep movin' on

Life,
Hope,
Truth,
Trust,
Faith,
Pride,
Love,
Lust

On without the things we've lost
The things we've gained we'll take with us

And all I've got are these two hands to make myself a better man
I wonder if I'll ever see the end of this
With all this rain it just keeps falling
On my head and now I'm calling
Out to someone else to help me make it through

Not everybody knows that everybody goes to a better place
Not everybody knows that everyone could be living their last days
But the hard times will come, and we'll keep movin' on, we're movin' up
Keep movin' on

Life,
Hope,
Truth,
Trust,
Faith,
Pride,
Love,
Lust,
Pain,
Hate,
Lies,
Guilt,
Laugh,
Cry,
Live,
Die

Some friends become enemies
Some friends become your family
Make the best with what you're given
This ain't dying
This is living!

Said we're movin' on, and we got nothing to prove
To anyone 'cause we'll get through
We're movin' on and on and on and on...
Keep movin' on

Life,
Hope,
Truth,
Trust,
Faith,
Pride,
Love,
Lust,
Pain,
Hate,
Lies,
Kill,
Laugh,
Cry,
Live,
Die

Some friends become enemies
Some friends become your family
Make the best with what you're given
This ain't dying
This is living!

hey yes. i made another one of these thingies. click on the little one to get the huge one. yeah... if im lucky megan and i will get to do somthing before the young life concert that i would probably go to if i knew anything about and if my dad wasnt such a jerk about things at the last minute. oh well...blah. ive got some good lyrics to post but i wont cause there depressing. hah. never never land.....

sitting here. just ate a big hunk of dark chocolate. it tastes alright. looks like im not going to the game. and meg is going to hang with sara. guess ill be at home playing "the natch" (aka Natural Selection). and if i dont get to hang out with megs this weekend. im going to freaking keel over and die. lunch was fun today. i hope you can get the chocolate off your pants. lol. and now im determined to get a hip flask cause there just cool. hmm. i guess im done. i think ill go make a cup of coffee.

hmm. yay. 12:30. going to do english HW. today was pretty...alright. untill i found out that i screwed it up. but you say dont worry. and ill try my best not to. i promise. tomorrow (today) is rubber chicken. basket ball game school rivalry competition deal. and a mixer. woo. so i dont know if im going to anything. i want to spend some time with megan. shes probably going to the girls b-ball game before the boys and not going to the boys one. but gah! i want to spend time with you like nothing else. seriously. but im stupid. and i cant think of anyplace where people can just GO and just BE together. lol of course we could always go to starbucks. rar. arg. i feel sick. my stomach is wrenchy. gar. and the fact that i never actually got around to eating any dinner most likely isnt helping. oh well. complaining wont fix it. i had some coffee at 10, but its not keeping me up. ill go to sleep after i do my english. and tomorrow (today) theres somthing i have to do. lol im not going to say. and yeah i might seem uber important from my reluctance to tell, but really its not. its just somthing i would like. and im hoping youll indulge me. gar. i didnt get to make your chocolate pretty. but i hope youll still like it.

i guess this is really living. because i really couldnt tell you what i even think is going to happen tomarrow. cool eh? i have absolutely no idea. the lovely mystery of tomorrow. great stuff. *sigh* well i should get to my english. goodnight.

failure is always easy. its like suicide for the soul. i bet i sound so stupid right now while i talk to you. because i cant think at all. anger and frustration. ive spent my whole life trying not to be typical. but typical seems to be a black hole thats sucking me in. and i hate it.

i cry bloody tears
im cut on the inside
took a blow to the heart
stabbed it with my ignorance

well. how do i say this. wow. i dont know. i feel really good right now. and yes. the poem wasnt really about me thinking that you guys dont tell me anything. it was more a bad remenice on a bad feeling. you actually make me feel trusted and its a great feeling. both of you. megan, kaiti, i just need to say thank you. tomorrow when i come early and see you to im just going to freak out and give you both huge hugs. AHHHHH!!! *scream of joy as i come running for a tackle hug! haha!* . looking up on these backed entries its like im on an emotional roller coaster. and i think it was oh-so-dumb of me. but now that we've talked things are so much better. i feel so much better. i swear, you have a talent for pulling me out of my own quicksand. haha. you'll be the death of me. im going to explode from too much good feeling. now. there is one legendary emo face for this feeling. GIANT GRIN WITH SQUINTY EYES! BEHOLD! XD


lol yes. awesome. also Good Charlotte - Moving on is a really awesome song so thats what this snipet is from goodnight.

"Life!
Hope!
Truth!
Trust!
Faith!
Pride!
Love!
Lust!"